My Dad died on Sunday, September 28, 2025 at 3:00pm. I was holding his hand as he was slipping away from the physical world and entering the spiritual world. I had prayed a month before that I would be holding his hand when he transitioned. God answered my prayer. I had never lost anyone of such significance before and I had never experienced watching someone move from the physical realm to the spiritual realm. I was very close to my Dad. He was the one man in the world who never left. I was about to say “never let me down,” but honestly, there were moments in my life when I felt like he had — at least that’s how it seemed to me at the time. Looking back now, I can see he never meant to, and most of those moments were really just about how I was seeing things then. Of course, he had his own perspective.
One thing I have realized since he passed away is this: the Before and After. There was the “Before” when he was still alive and well in the physical realm and now there is the “After” of him alive and well in the spiritual realm. My spirituality has been helpful for me to accept his transition, his return HOME, but there are still physical world emotions that I must work through in the loss that I feel. I know I can talk to him whenever I want and he will respond. I do this often. I know that, although he is not here in physical form, he is ALWAYS connected to me in spiritual form.
My Dad was the strength in the family. He was the rock. There are many adjustments that need to be made now that I have entered “The After”. There is acceptance to be cultivated. There is an emotional exhaustion that has filled me for the past few weeks that needs to be overcome. There is the choice to feel sad and decide to flow with the sadness until it lifts me up to a higher vibration or to allow it to drown me. There is a new reality; no longer like before. Now it is “The After”. I choose to grow through this experience and allow it to strengthen me, understand my emotions and how to navigate them and allow the love and guidance my father instilled in me to rise to the top. I will always stay focused on gratitude. I am blessed.
Peace and Love ~ Laura
